I can honestly say that each day with my granddaughter is a new adventure.
Our latest one is getting ready for school. She starts kindergarten this year—all day, every day. She tells me that she is “nervous about it.” I get that. I was nervous when I first started kindergarten. There were a lot of new things to deal with. I had to ride a BIG school bus for the first time. My stomach felt like it was down in the depths of my shoes somewhere.
The bus ride to school was fine. The problem was coming back home. I got on the wrong bus. It seems I was to ride a different bus home than the one I rode in the mid-day to get to school. I didn’t know. No one told me to ride bus 6 not bus 3. I was 5. I didn’t know and I was terrified.
The bus kept stopping and dropping off kids, but none of these kids or places looked familiar to me at all. I was scared. I was so little back then that my head didn’t even show over the seat in front of me. I don’t remember how the bus driver found me—it must have been when he was sweeping the bus out after the route was over.
I remember my mom and dad coming to town to pick me up. I was done! I had never been so scared in my life, at least up to that point. There was no way I was ever going to school again!
I don’t know how they ever convinced me to ride the bus again, but they did. I rode the bus nearly every school day for the next 13 years!
Now it’s her turn…
But now it’s not me that’s going to ride the bus—it’s my granddaughter and honestly, I think I feel as nervous about it as she does! What if the kids are mean to her? What if they tease her or hurt her?
I was bullied when I rode the bus. What if she gets bullied?
I feel like a wreck, but I have to be strong for her. If she sees me being fearful, then she will be more fearful and nervous. I don’t want that to happen.
It’s hard to still the “buts” that keep popping up in my mind. School starts in about a week, but I can’t get the nervousness out of my head. How am I going to help her get it out of hers?
She does have another little friend who will be riding the bus with her, but this doesn’t ease my mind a lot because her friend is smaller than she is!
Still, in my heart, I have to believe that everything will be okay—that she will be okay. Perhaps I am just missing her already!
Getting ready for the first day…
We have bought her new shoes—ones that she thinks are extremely cute! We’ve bought her several new dresses and leggings. She used to wear pants and t-shirts and blouses, but for the past year, she will only wear dresses.
“Because I am a girl and girl’s wear dresses.”
I’m not quite sure where she got that because I don’t wear dresses and most of her little friends don’t wear dresses, but she simply refuses to wear anything else. AND it has to be cute!
My granddaughter is “too cute for words” in my opinion anyway, but, well, what’s a grandma to do?
We don’t buy her tops anymore or pants because it is just a waste of money. She doesn’t even like to wear skorts anymore. I posted a couple of weeks ago about skorts (skirt with shorts underneath, but all one piece), but since then she has switched gears and no longer wants to wear them, either! Good grief!
We have enrolled our granddaughter in a private school because we want her to be able to enjoy smaller class sizes and receive a Christian education, as well. Because of that, most of our shopping, outside of clothes, is done because her tuition and fees help pay for all her school needs like pencils, crayons, glue, paper and all those other things that kids need for school.
We are ready!
I am more nervous than she is…
My granddaughter is very curious and wants to know things.
As nervous as she says she is, she seems to be learning all about the school bus from someone. She knows that it will be much bigger than her old bus—a short bus with just her other preschool friends riding. She knows that there are no seat belts on the big bus.
She knows to tell the bus driver or aide if she has any problems. She knows that I will be there at the bus stop with her every day.
You know what I have discovered? I am far more nervous about her going to school and riding the bus than she is! That’s okay, though. I can be nervous for both of us!
Tying it all together—it’s hard to let go
We have a big few days ahead of us as she is revving up for her first day of school and I am working on letting her go. This is harder for me than when she went to preschool. But all will be well. We have everything in place and she is really looking forward to a fun year in kindergarten!
I just wish I could ride the bus with her…
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About the author
Karin Nauber, “G.G.” is a professional journalist who has worked in the newspaper business for the past 27 years. She is also a grandmother who, along with her spouse, is raising one of their granddaughters. G.G. has five grandchildren with whom she enjoys spending as much time as possible. She began this website with the hope of helping other grandparents who may be struggling with their role as parent/grandparents. If you would like to contact her, please do so at: firstname.lastname@example.org.